Sometimes being a mom at 24 was hard, I felt older and so far separated from what others my age were doing especially my friends. If I said all of my friendships lasted and are still strong I'd be lying, my little family moved to the top of my priority list (where they still stand), we started hanging out on Friday and Saturday nights with our immediate family's letting grandma and grandpas pass around the baby and just enjoy some time using both my hands.
We started leaving Lydia with my parents more often, they basically had a nursery set up in my old room so Lydia slept well there and was comfortable there, we never had any guilt about leaving her. She had a blast with my mom and dad. However, we would make plans to actually go out meet up with people and by midnight matt and I are looking at each other across the table with "when can we leave and go home to sleep" looks. We aged a lot when Lydia was born. We didn't have to necessarily give up social functions but there comes a time that you want to give those up and you want to be in your comfortable environment of family.
We are now on our 2nd baby at only 27 years old. (That feels old to me but I know it's not) my friends are just starting to have babies or are thinking about that next step. Soon they will understand why we left the bar at 11:30 or why we stopped having parties and get togethers at our house. I'm hoping we can start to see them all more often as babies play on floors together and get passed from one set of arms to the other. It has started and it makes me happy to not be alone in the world as a parent in our circle of friends.
I think about how my sister and brother won't be having babies soon, I'm sad my kids won't have cousins their age like I did growing up. But I think about how this is an opportunity to raise my kids to be good examples, to love others, to be good big cousins to their baby cousins one day. I think about how when we no longer have a baby to snuggle, our family and friends they will be having baby's that I can snuggle.
The world as a young mom is something I never saw myself being a part of. I thought we would wait 5 years or so to start a family but 1 1/2 years later I had the bug and we had Lydia. It was by far the best decision of my life. I like being the go to mom for my friends because I've been there (twice) and lived to tell about it. I love that my body was able to take pregnancy and all of the changes with no problem, I love that I have the energy to get on the floor and to chase them around, to play big airplane with Lydia.
What else do I love?? That Matt and I will have all of our children out of college, out of the home in time for us to enjoy some alone time again. To enjoy the later 1/2 of our lives together and experience life with hopefully better funds then we started this life together with.
God is good and everything happens for a reason, being a young mom is hard but so worth it. I love that I listened to that itch and that calling that we were supposed to start our family when we did. My babies are a blessing, being a mom changed me at the right time in my life, it put things into perspective and gave me a purpose when sometimes life can be the hardest.
Come to think of it...my life pretty much rocks and God is totally a show off, I love that about him!!
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