Mama is a Hot Mess

First of all, we just went to orientation last night for Lydia's preschool. I was overwhelmed to say the least, just a lot that I didn't think about. Things I'm glad the school is thinking about. Things like carpool line, security measures, and packing an extra pair of clothes in a zip loc bag to keep in their school bag. Glad they know what they are doing. Like I said before I can't do this alone, I'm leaning on those God puts in my path.

Second, my baby boy is turning 1 on Saturday. ONE YEAR OLD.... How the heck does this happen so fast? Why does this happen so fast? I'm not as sad and weepy as I was with Lydia when she turned a year (pretty sure I cried every day for a month) because I know how much fun is ahead but I think a  part of every mama grieves the loss of that first year, the newness and sweetness of a newborn. Just knowing that you can never go back to that time again, the first time but man all the good that happens along the way. I'm holding on to that and soaking it all in. He is such a blessing to this family.

Oy, this mama's emotions are all over the place. Please disregard me if you see me in public. I'm not always such a hot mess I promise.