Our first month together!

Lydia,

You are one month old today, I cannot believe that one month ago I was big and pregnant awaiting the first sign of your pending arrival. It seems like so long ago but just like yesterday all at the same time. Our first month was filled with lots of ups and downs, mostly downs for mommy but you helped me get through them, you and your dad were what kept me going.

In this month, I got to hear you cry for the first time as they put you in the warmer and cleaned you up to hand you over to your daddy. I got to watch people fill with joy and love as they met you and held you for the first time. You are such a lucky little girl with so many people who love you and would do anything for you.

I love when you are screaming for someone else and when I take you from them to hold you all is good with the world again because you are with your mommy. Yes there are plenty of times we both cry together as I get frustrated and you get fussier but that's part of it right, we are learning more and more about each other every day and it takes time to learn a new language (newborn was not something I was very fluent in).

I had to spend a few nights away from you and it was enough to realize that everyone is so correct when they say that when you have a baby it fills a void you never knew existed. I had no idea that I had a huge gaping hole where you would eventually be. Those 4 days were the hardest of my life and when I got to come home to you it made me heal so much faster!

Here are some moments I have grown to love the most over the last month:


When you hold my pinky as I feed you your bottle

When you stare at me and smile (it might be gas but I think it's my kisses!)

When we have dance parties in your nursery to get rid of your hiccups (just to wait them out really)

When your eyes get real big as you discover something new

When you are sleeping so peacefully in my arms and I can hear your breathing change

When I take you places and people ooo and aaa over you, everyone smiles when they lay their eyes on you, you work magic little lady!!

When you make me laugh out loud as you make silly faces and cross your eyes as you try and focus

When you aren't quite to the screaming because you are hungry stage but at what I have affectionately named the "crack baby" stage and you make pug like noises and try and eat your hands, it makes me laugh every time

I love everything about you, even your fussy moments, because I will look back one day and realize that these we were the moments we were figuring this whole newborn and first time mommy thing out. You are a blessing and a true miracle, if anyone ever needed proof of our amazing God and the miracles he works every day, they just need to look at you and know he is real!

I love you Lydia Rose and am so excited for our future together as we keep growing as a mommy and a baby together, you are stuck with me for life little lady!

love,

Mommy :)



(month stickers to come, I ordered them but I am missing Month 1 and 2)