For those of you who are new to my little corner of the web as in you were not reading when I had Lydia over 2 years ago now (holy moly) then you won't quite understand why I am getting nervous with 4 weeks to go until our little one arrives.
My delivery/recovery from having Lydia was not what anyone would consider ideal. It was actually pretty scary and messy.
Read more Here, Here and Here.
I love that our bodies somehow blur that out and make you think that you can do it all over again although now that we are only weeks out I am second guessing a bit why I thought I was ready to go through with this again.
I talked with my doctor over a year ago when we were thinking of trying again and asked how we could do this differently, how we could make this not as dramatic and awful as last time. She suggested scheduling and planning it with her. That way we are guaranteed to have her as my dr., I won't push for 2 hours subjecting my body to a higher risk of infection and we will have an OR that is ready for me. This should help the whole infection and no progress in the pushing department.
However, now I am undergoing routine blood work to watch my platelet levels because they are low and dropping. Ok big deal until I Google exactly what platelets do and truth is they are important little boogers. They will help keep me from bleeding after a C-section. Baby totally not at risk, such a relief everything is looking good and on schedule in that area. BUT now I'm nervous, like really nervous to do this all again. To plop my butt up on that operating table and let them operate while I'm awake waiting for the words "It's a …." Praying that my body does what it was made to do and that the platelets work their booties off to make sure I stop bleeding.
If you are the praying type, please pray that my levels stay right around where they are now, no dropping anymore so I don't have to see a specialist and I don't have to move up my delivery date. That it all just stays as planned, that my nerves that are skyrocketing through my body right now will be for nothing.
That a month from today on August 3rd I will be holding my baby in a hospital room with family surrounding us.
2 comments:
Praying for a safe delivery and recovery!
My first in 2007 was an emergency c-section (28 hours of labor after my water broke, and then I developed a fever aka possible infection)...it was very traumatic and recovery was difficult. (I went in on a Wed evening, she was born Fri night, then I went home the following Tues...ugh) My daughter had to be in the NICU for a few days in case she had any infection and it KILLED me that everyone else got to see her before I did since I had her at 9:30pm and they didn't want me to get out of bed until the next day. Earlier this year I finally broke free from my depression surrounding that. My second in 2008 was an unwanted-planned c-section(I know, doesn't make sense - I REALLY wanted to VBAC but baby was transverse and wouldn't turn after many attempts). My body still took quite a while to recover, but my mind was in such a better place than the first time around...and that helped A LOT. Although I really wanted a VBAC, at least I knew that I wouldn't be laboring for so long again and then possibly having another emergency c-section. It was such a different experience than my first...I remember talking with my doctor about motorcycles as she was performing major surgery on me :-) And, I got to see him right away and he was able to stay in my recovery room. Hubby and I took some time with him before anyone else got to see him!
In the end, we have 2 healthy children that we love more than anything - and while their births may not have happened how I planned/wanted them to, He had a plan...
Oh - and how exciting that you are waiting to find out the gender! We did the same...LOVE the surprise!
Maybe I should have just created a post for this looong comment ;-)
Prayers sent your way...
Will be praying for you and wishing I was there to visit you both in the hospital right away!! Cannot wait to find out what the little babe is too!!!! Love you lots and miss ya!
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