The first moment, was our first trip to church as a family of 6! To have all my little ducklings lined up in the pew between us made my heart burst at the seams...made me sing a little louder, praise our God in Thanksgiving for the blessing of these little people!
The second moment came this week at the doctor office with Theo. I was sooooo incredibly proud of our BRAVE boy...I felt as proud of him as I did for my other 3 when they conquer something that has given them so much fear or anxiety. He felt like mine, he felt like my flesh and blood and to a mom who has struggled to feel like the mom, not the babysitter it was a welcome feeling. He walked back holding my hand when they called his name, he stood on the scale, he walked over to the height measurer thing (technical term), he let Dr. Yoder take his shoes and socks off (caused crazy anxiety and tears last time), he showed her his belly and held his shirt up for her to check his chest and let her listen to his heart. He ended up getting two shots and he screamed and cried it took 3 of us to hold him down but by the time we got shoes back on and walked to the front to check out, he had his sucker and the tears were gone! My BRAVE BOY!!!
These glimpses and feelings that leave us feeling like we are marching forward in a future so bright as a family of 6 gives me HOPE!! We do take plenty of steps back and have seen some regression from mommy easing back into work, but we are preparing for those and have had to say no to a few fun things recently that we would love to do as a couple...but we are holding onto HOPE that these things are building his trust in us as his parents...establishing a foundation that will be strong enough to stand the test of time.
P.S. he calls me mommy now and well I just can't get over that....a boy from around the world, born 3 1/2 years before I would ever meet him, born to another woman and left to be found, calls me mommy...Thank you Jesus for this honor.
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<3!!!!!!!!
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