My body is not my own.....

So I know I am not the only new mom who hit summer this year and had to put away the cute bikini and reluctantly hit purchase on the screen for a one piece. Now I know there are a lot of new moms who didn't have to give that up and were rockin their two pieces and looking amazing. For me, I don't think I will ever wear a two piece again, I keep justifying it to myself with the fact that next year I will be chasing a little toddler around the pool and I don't need to worry about making sure everything is in it's place so I don't flash everyone in site. That makes me feel a tad bit better, one pieces are much easier to get in and out of the pool and play while you are at it.

However, since I saw that YES on the pregnancy test almost a year ago (wow!) I gave away all rights to my body, it was not my own anymore, I was sharing it with a tiny little angel baby that relied on me to provide for her, I gave her a comfy place to grow, I gave her the nutrients she needed to grow, I gave her the occasional exercise that kept her new home healthy and in shape, I gave her a home that GREW with her (how nice right). So from that moment on my body was not my own, it was hers as well.

In a way it still is, no I didn't breastfeed but I carry her around and keep her safe still to this day, I let her cuddle in my oversized breasts (still haven't gone back down since they grew on me that 1st trimester) and I need to try and stay healthy so I can care for her.

I have successfully lost ALL BABY WEIGHT! + 12 lbs from my first baby visit at the doctor's office. That is awesome right?!? I'm so proud of myself BUT this is the part I didn't realize before hand, that although I dropped the weight, that doesn't mean my clothes would fit the same again. My skin is all saggy and in the wrong places, my boobs haven't gone back down, and I have a road map on my stomach and hips from all of my stretch marks.

Would I do it all again?? HECK YES! My angel is worth every single stretch mark that has put me into that one piece. I worked harder to make it into that one piece than I ever worked to make it into a two piece before a Spring Break or summer vacation. I am happy to be a mom and I happy to have shared my body with this little blessing and will share it once again with her brother or sister down the road...

But man sometimes I just wish I could have my old body back, back to my honeymoon when I looked awesome and knew it.

There have been lots of posts lately about weight, whether they have just had their babies or are pregnant and dealing with having to weigh in every doctors visit and watch that number climb and climb. Ladies you are not alone, we all go through it, yes some have an easier time than others but man these little miracles are worth it, just remember that! God made our bodies to be able to handle this and we must trust that and be proud of our bodies and what they have accomplished no matter what they look like after the fact, because damn i look good in my one piece with a baby on my hip :)