Weddings, Racing and Mommy Milestones

So this weekend has been a lot of fun and also the start of some big Mommy Milestones.

Friday night we went to a wedding for a high school friend of mine. It was so fun to see everyone, get dressed up, dance, drink and have a good time with old friends. We are all at that age that we don't all get together anymore unless it's at a wedding it seems. Which is fine I love seeing all my friends happy and starting their lives with the one they love. It was also a fun night for me and Matt to get out have some drinks and let loose. We even had Lydia stay the night with my mom and dad so we didn't have to go get her so late and in case mom had a few too many drinks we could get some sleep and be good to go the next day. So that was Mommy Milestone #1 and Lydia did GREAT! She slept all night for my parents and didn't wake up until 6:15 am, wooop woop.

With the happy couple (sorry so dark)

Sunday we went to the Brickyard 400 so once again I left Lydia ALL DAY this time. We left her with Matt's mom since we go to the race with his family and leave from their house so we left her with Grandma. She seemed to do really well once she realized where she was, she woke up from her first nap not really sure where she was and a little fussy because of it but Matt's mom said she was fine once she got over that initial uneasiness. So Mommy Milestone #2 complete and Lydia once again passed with flying colors. (mommy on the other hand, looked at Lydia pictures and checked her phone a lot while out at both events) I just can't help it she's always on my mind.

From our seats right in front of the pits

Mommy Milestone #3 comes tomorrow morning when I leave her for the whole day to go back to work :( My heart is breaking I have no idea how I'm going to do it. I can leave her for a few hours here and there but it's never for 8 hours at a time 5 days in a row. I hate that I'm not going to be the one she wakes up from her naps to, I'm not going to be the one to give her her bottle every time, I'm not going to be the one who soothes her if she has a fussy afternoon. I'm just going to be the one who wakes her up in the morning and puts her to bed at night :( No more giggly, lazy, cuddly Lydia mornings, those are my favorite because she is so happy after her morning bottle and before her morning nap. Instead I will be in an office where my work is never good enough and I never feel like a success. At home I feel like a success because she makes me feel like I am the center of her world, just like she is the center of mine. I feel like I'm a good mom and what I do everyday with her matters.

Prayers for me as I try and get through this week as a now working mom :( UGGGH