I am going to bed at night with an unsettlted heart for what is next, what is my calling, how do I help, how do I provide for my family but still contribute and give to the calling of the fatherless, how do I go on trips to love on those same children if I can't afford to go or I don't have vacation time. How do I provide help to others working towards this same cause if I can't even put enough away to bring our own baby home. Do we keep saving and have baby #2 in a year or so. Is our house even big enough to bring another baby home, how do I get out of our house if I can't afford to get into a bigger one. These thoughts run circles around my brain ALL DAY and ALL NIGHT, they won't stop!
I know that God has an answer and he will show me what is next and I just need to get out of the way, I NEED TO GET OUT OF MY OWN WAY, but when I do that sometimes I feel like I'm doing nothing. Ugggh.
2 comments:
This post broke my heart. I am going to pray for you guys so much and pray Jesus brings peace and comfort and answers to each and every question you have right now. I have been there too and know the frustration. Just remember how perfect His timing will be and it will all make sense looking back; looking forward is the part that is difficult.
Praying hard that you feel God's comforting arms wrapping you in peace!
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