Prove It!

Recently a prayer that keeps coming to the surface and on the top of my mind whenever I write down my prayers in my prayer book or I lay my head on my pillow at night has been to be happy and fulfilled living a simple life.

Lets clear something up first, Simple Life means different things for different people. For us it means, cutting back on the number of times we eat out in a week, being happy with our 1,256 square foot home, cutting back on my random Target trips, loading my Starbucks card with what I am allowing myself to use for the month and enjoying the simple time together as a family. Ultimately allowing us to serve others.

This could free up dollars to go into our adoption fund, our savings, having the extra $20 to give to a blog friend bringing home their baby through adoption or not worrying whether or not we have the money for our sponsor child every month.

Do you remember that Restless post I did a couple of weeks ago, I knew we were waiting to make some decisions and could quite possibly be on the brink of change for us. One of those that I had hoped for was that we could sell our house and get into something a little more permanent and some place that we could truly grow our family.

We had our realtor friend over, he did his research, he crunched the #'s, compared us to others in our surrounding area, AND the result was not what I had hoped. I wasn't too suprised but in the end I had to face the reality of our situation and that is we are not in the right situation to move at this time.

I shed a few selfish tears, I shed tears for the woman who used to love entertaining and was the hostess with the mostess (a small house with 3 dogs and a toddler do not allow for that anymore), I shed a tear for the mom who wants many more kids than were in the original plans for my life, I shed a tear for the change I was seeking. Then I wiped those tears away, I started brainstorming additional storage ideas to make more out of the space we have because really we probably aren't using it to it's full capabilities. (we already brought in one fun addition, my first Craigslist purchase, a post all it's own coming soon)

I wiped my tears away, started pulling weeds (good stress reliever) and it hit me, God, you are answering my prayer aren't you, you HAVE been listening and just like we always hear and just like Father said in church this Sunday, be persistant in your prayers and God will answer, may not always be what you think you WANT or thought you Needed but it will be what you really NEED.

What do I really NEED? Everything I have at this moment is what I need. So I will prove to God that I am good with his reply, that I hear him loud and clear that we will make the most of our little home of our place we are in, in this moment and embrace it.

Encouraged by my answered prayer and the challenge that is ahead in making the most of our sweet little home.